Los Angeles, CA, United States (4E) – Singer Nicole Scherzinger is on the cover of Cosmopolitan UK’s August 2014 issue, and in the interview, she talked about her past struggles with bulimia, the “dark time” in her life that made her “miserable inside.”
She said, “Thinking about it I try not to well up… It is such a horrible paralysing disease and it was such a dark time for me. That’s why I can empathise so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren’t nice to themselves.”
“It robs you of living your life. But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever,” the former Pussycat Dolls member added. “I did it and that’s why it’s so important for me to share my story. I felt so alone… but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it – do not give up because you’re so special and you’re meant for such great things.”
The 36-year-old realized that her problem was getting out of hand when it got in the way of her performance and health. She said, “I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France.”
It was then she realized she had to do push herself to overcome it, thinking “I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.” She added, “It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I’m never letting that happen again; you only get one life – I was 27 only once.”
Meanwhile, Scherzinger has since recovered from her dark past, having soared in her musical career and appeared as a judge in “The X Factor” by making “making everything about others and not thinking about [herself].
The “Your Love” singer, while keeping her career her top priority, has also soared in her love life, having just celebrated her sixth anniversary with on-and-off-again long-distance boyfriend Lewis Hamilton.
“Well it’s something crazy romantic,” she said. “Relationships are hard and having to hold a long-distance relationship is even harder. It’s kudos to us for growing and trying – there’s so much love there. It’s just the distance, it’s not natural for anyone. But I’m good and I’m happy.”